Wall Ball

The rails were cold on my hands

but so was the coffee we share with a straw

Topics of conversation trail off

into the luminous glow of childhood

Like the rules of kickball suppressing

we write our names on the cement walls

we watch the smoke crawl out of your house
I set my hand in fresh gum

warm from the chew

pale strings flow in the windless room

far enough to make us leave

Grazing those cold rails

we do not step on the cracks

they are toxic

and will hurl us back into the past

 

Practice makes perfect

when denying our lives and

living under rocks

 

Forgotten Balsamic

Hung on a Sunday,

Filing for a loan.

Sewing buttons back on pants,

Still afraid of the family dog.

 

Longing for ice cream on the steps of the general store.

Aesthetically pleasing 99 cent lollipops,

Unfinished hashbrowns.

A lettuce eating competition,

And stakes are high.

FREE SHIT

FREE SCRAP METAL

That kitchen you always dreamed of

The three tiered mesh fruit basket in the centre, drawing energy

I am dipping my slightly charred pancakes into a tea I added too much sugar to

I release three confused tears out of my only working tear duct

Give it three years and your house will have burned

Too bad your husband made it out (don’t worry he died later)

Silently in the night

Three drawers in your refrigerator

Full of food you never got to taste

A baby of three years you never got to taste

Oh, sorry I mean never got to meet

Absurdism

The human condition,

conditions traditions.

Forces submission  and capitalism.

What a charming revision.

The human condition,

lacks capitalism via punctuation.

For capitalism would imply grammatical celebration,

when indeed it’s definition reflects cannibalism.

The human condition,

is sad repetition.

Life and death played out in suburban subdivisions

The human condition,

drives youth to self inflicted incisions.

Suicide contemplations,

cases and cases of denaturation.

The human condition,

screams for detoxification,

or better yet,

extermination.

Pining

I miss driving fast

The long summer days have collapsed

We would get high on the ski mountain

Asking Jim to drive again

 

I miss my piece of shit car

That beautiful purple interior

The time spent in the back seats

Steamed windows

Dripping streaks

 

I miss my old friends

Well maybe I just pretend

It was the second guessed perception

That lead to the end

 

But, those days are gone

Repeated and stressed like an old song

With all longing aside

The simple days of that youth are gone

 

Now we sit and drink warm beer

In constant financial fear

Crippling debt is just part of life

Fucking amazing, right?

 

19th birthdays full of pink

Dumping vodka in my rented sink

Looking like trash

With a group of friends to match

 

These days will eventually be gone

After they become repetitive like that old song

Longing aside

Every single shining youthful moment will soon die